Numb

I have been struggling with a situation that has consumed a lot of me for the past year. I won't go into details, but it has been such a heart breaking ordeal. I have been thinking a lot lately about how I have shut off some of my emotions. I feel numb. I am amazingly blessed. I have a wonderful wife and great kids. I love my job...my calling. I take the blessings for granted and it feels like the blessings get swallowed up by the struggles. My prayer is that God will revive my soul. I know He will...it's Who He is.."He restores my soul..."
There is a light at the end of the tunnel...the situation mentioned before will soon be lifted, but lifted in a painful way. I don't know if that makes sense. I am praying for God's redemption and for His restoration.
But for now, I'm numb. Numb knowing that feeling will come back.

Blog or no blog?

I am so inconsistent. It's been 8 months since my last entry. I get so caught up in what's going on in my everyday life that I forget this blog is even here. I have a heavy heart. Maybe blogging will help. I feel a blog coming on!

going to the gym

I am going to the gym later tonight. I am nervous. I feel like going to P.E. for the first time when I was in 7th grade. Ah, the joys of middle school P.E. My first locker room...smelly from the football team. One of my most embarrassing moments happened when I was in the locker room. I was stepping out of the shower and BAM! instant split. There I was in all of my preteen naked glory..."Get the coach!!" I yelled. Coach Young came with a little grin...covered me with a towel and helped me up.
I remember one year at P.E. trying to do a pull up with everyone watching. Everyone watching me grunt and struggle with no avail. It turned out to be a positive experience. I went to a Christian school and the Pastor of the church (President of the school) was there and he encouraged me and said in front of all the other guys that I tried...I gave it a good effort and he praised me for the effort.
I have always loved sports and I loved playing baseball. I have never been the greatest athlete. I have always been able to throw and catch very well...just not able to throw long distances. Tonight I begin a journey of going to the gym. I really want to lose some weight and gain some strength. I am praying that I keep it up and I don't do any splits in the locker room.

Snow is a comin'!

Snow is a comin' to Georgia. We gotta make sure we have milk and bread! I haven't blogged since last year. Time flies. This is probably the 8th blog to say how time flies!
The last few months have been rough. Through it all, God has been in control. Like I have to say that anyways. I'm thankful for a God who loves me no matter what. I'm trying to share Him with my kids, one in particular who is really struggling. This is all for now...I am going to go for now and sleep...waiting on the snow that is a comin'!